i will be entering friday-hiatus for an indefinite period of time.
reasons: studying for school, educating myself, reading, writing in my diary, and enjoying life without the pressure of writing here every friday. however, i love this blog and long for it, so i might just write more periodically. cheers.
also, i just watched the movie "Israelism". i recommend it to you all. sadly, i got used to not crying and to being desensibilized that no tear left my eyes.
have a good day
hi y'all, i'm BluePuffin!
this week was really life! pride march, got a bf (i stole him muhihihi), school, and i went to an osteopath. apparently me not expressing stuff i think is a factor causing escoliosis for me? damn, the language dam became such a trouble that my thoughts are getting stuck ?!?
here come the song recommendations!! and then a poem.
Meu Amor de Longe by Raquel Tavares
hi y'all, i'm bluepuffin!
i got a kufiya scarf, and i love it! this week, it really was a source of joy, worry, and surprise. i will write about it after the song recommendations ^-^
Saia da Carolina by Carolina Deslandes
Lorde - Man Of The Year
it's just... wow. LE'TS HEAR IT FOR THE MAAAAN OF THE YEAR.
Kikuo - Rainborn Menoko
Hey yall! little update: I added a lot of stuff to the blog on September 5 and 6, like a guestbook, chatrooms, an intro and badges! i hope you enjoy :). so, anyways, let's dive into the entry now.
hi again! *awkward* today's song recommendation is... *drum roll* MAMMA MIA BY ABBA!! 🥳🎉 this brings me back to when i was in a "do what sport you want" PE class and the girlies allegedly chose songs to play, and ABBA played. i felt like in a dancing salon, like the 80s, i dont know how to explain. certainly an experience, for sure!
also, Procura por Mim by Amor Electro always makes me feel saudades... (like something is missing from me)
hello, im bluepuffin! ⋆ ˚｡⋆୨୧˚
there's a chance you're a sudomemer and not a puffin... so, welcome here! on wednesday, 3rd September, I interviewed sudofox (you'll know about that person soon!), on Discord, so i'll share the interview. he really put a lot of thought into each reply :) brace yourself for a looooong entry!!
but first, today's song recommendation is サヨナラマタイツカ by Pitcher56! chill. also ある喫茶 by mei ehara ഔ
Hi y'all! Today, I don't have poetry for yall. I have a flipnote animation of Washing Machine Heart by Mitski! I made it on a software called Flipnote Studio, on the Nintendo DSi. Eek! I'll probably post it to Sudomemo later. I'm currently in Monsaraz, a rural area in Portugal, in vacation. There's no WI-FI, so i can't get Sudomemo (revival of Flipnote Hatena, the animation video version of Twitter for Nintendo DSi) to work yet. I plan to interview the creator of the revival.
Help someone today for free at here!
Have a nice day :)
P.S.: my mom told me I had nightmares last night. Blame the animation lol. Or the book I've been reading ("This Book Is Gay.").
hey, im bluepuffin!
hello, i am bluepuffin, and i love you.
and i want you to know that you are loved. please know.
''i don't get angry when i'm pissed, im the eternal optimist, i scream inside to deal with it, like AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA. like AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA.................... all the time, im grateful all the time ₍^. .^₎Ⳋ ''
i kind of learned how to barely externalize anger towards others, and how to so minimazing how much they'd be hurt, even though im also, though i dont really get why or how, hurt. now, only my grandma is here and my non-grandpa. im still pissed off, but relieved. i just hope they are gone sooner by tomorrow. there's a thing called "social battery", and i like to be alone. so, now, a poem secretly directed to those who are inhabiting my place past my preferred time, will be shown to you.
Hello, I'm BluePuffin!!
hello, im bluepuffin!
before i full on write how i've been feeling, i'd like to share a song that scratches a feeling in me, for some reason: Spring Into Summer by Lizzy McAlpine. (no, before any potato i know in real life gets to this blog, this ain't related to anyone you know xx).
hey, im bluepuffin.
I was awake until like 2:30 AM, but it was for a good cause: I was seeing the hidden news unfold, right from the people on board, of the hijacking of the Madleen.
On June 9th, the Madleen, a humanitarian aid vessel aid which sailed to Gaza, was intercepted by Israeli forces in international waters. This is what unfolded in real time, from the eyes of those like me who scrolled through Instagram and Telegram and also from the activists on board.
The Madleen is a vessel that sailed, on the first of June, from Italy with 11 activists, such as Greta Thunberg; and one journalist, with the goal of reaching Gaza. They had humanitarian aid on the boat: 100kg flour, 250kg rice, baby formula, medical kits, et cetera. This aid would definitely not be enough to end the famine in Gaza, but it would be symbolic.
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| The Madleen |
However, unlike the last time the Freedom Flotilla Coalition tried to reach Gaza with aid, the Madleen wasn’t attacked when they sailed near Malta. They were attacked during the dead of night, the earliest of morning, on June 9th, Monday, by Israeli forces, and I was desperately looking for information on social media.
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| The "Conscience", a Freedom Flotilla ship who had the same purpose as the Madleen but was attacked when they sailed near Malta |
Guess what? 2 Israeli quadcopters surrounding the vessel, spraying a white, paint-like substance that passengers described as an irritant. Minute by minute, I posted Stories on Instagram updating people with information. No one cared, or so it seemed. The radio on the vessel was playing disturbing messages, sabotaged. The communications? Eventually, cut completely. Shortly afterward the “paint attack”, the Freedom Flotilla Coalition reported losing contact with those on board. Sorrowfully, as the vessel was about 185 kilometers away from Gaza, Israeli forces entered it and took control of it. The ship, seized; the activists (and that one journalist), kidnapped.
By the way, a video Greta had recorded before being kidnapped which was to use in the situation of being kidnapped, which she was, was posted. The other passengers did the same, with their videos posted too. I shared, on my Story, on Instagram, Greta’s video. I was shocked. Unexpectedly, a friend reached out and I found a partner to share this with, but then we had to sleep, since it was later than 2AM in Portugal. Not like we have school anyways.
Today, the 9th of June, afternoon, the vessel has stopped on the Ashdod port. If the passengers choose to stay, they will suffer detention. If they agree to leave, they will be taken to their countries of origin.
The events are still unfolding, and I hope everything is okay by the time I post this on Friday. Though Israel’s Ministry of Foreign Affairs called their vessel a “selfie yacht”, as if the activists were there for a sort of publicity stunt, even if that came to be true, that doesn't erase the fact they came with humanitarian aid. Imagine attacking an aid vessel. How does giving aid to starving people in Gaza affect Israel in any way? What authority has Israel to seize a ship sailing in international waters carrying aid? Imagine being attacked for trying to help.
Okay, now it's June 10th. Greta was taken to France with 3 other activists, and the remaining on board the vessel are in detention in Israel... They are being treated as if they came to Israel illegally, when they were TAKEN to Israel illegally. Keep in mind the French-Palestinian Rima Hassan, a member of the European Parliament, who was born in a refugee camp in Palestine, is now in detention in Israel. For trying to give aid to her own people. If that doesn't hurt you, I don't know what would.
Now it's June 11th. Wednesday. Rima and Thiago Ávila, another crew member, are now both already or to be put in solitary confinement. Rima had written "Free Palestine" on a wall of the prison she is/was in.
Now it's June 12th. From what I've heard, 6 of the 8 activists which were still in detention are too be freed (including Rima and Thiago). Let's wish the best of luck for them, and also for the children in Gaza who struggle so much. I have to study now.
today's song sugestion is Construção, by Chico Buarque.
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hey puffins!
Content Warning: Mentions of homophobia, Violence (not graphic) and Suicide (not graphic either, but emotionally sensitive.)
im BluePuffin and I'm right here! here are the song recommendations!
"Homophobia? For me, it doesn't sit quite right, because love isn't dictated by the words of anyone. The genocide? For me, it doesn't sit quite right. I don't want to have in my hands the blood of anyone."
It seems like a normal song against common-sensical bad things, right? It indirectly is against what's happening in Gaza (starvation... genocide.) and directly against many stuff, but is it just that? Nope.
This song is too relatable, and too needed, sadly. Though when the song was made we weren't exactly like now, right now, the song is more needed than ever: Chega, a far right political party in my country, is gaining traction. On the elections 5 days ago, they were the third most voted party, almost tying with the Socialist Party. Chega won where I live. As Chega grows, with simplistic narratives and potentially hateful discourses, so does conservatorism. With that, racism, homophobia and xenophobia, and the normalization of them, grows, grows, and grows. In my class, I have a girl who, as far as I know, is homophobic and in favour of Israel "because of her religion", and 3 classmates who publicly follow Chega's leader André Ventura on social media. (though I have some girl classmates who are disgusted at André and even believing he'd make my country a dictatorship, which doesn't sound too wrong to believe.)
By the way, at my school, it's quite common for people outside of the norms to be judged, and there are people who are openly Nazi and no one cares. In every room, in every wall, there's a swastika to find. Maybe not on every wall, but on every chair or desk, hidden, or even in plain sight. There's a chair I recall that is full of swastikas. Anyways, once, I had a classmate who'd invite me to his birthday party and happily talk with me, now he cuts me off before I start to speak, even asking me to kill myself, just because I'm often cringe, on purpose, to defy what's normal.*(see bottom of the entry) The growth of this political party only comes to, directly or not, exacerbate the already existing discrimination, specially when many or some of the party members are publicly discriminators.
For instance, one of the members currently in the parliament, Ricardo Lopes Reis, celebrated Odair Moniz's death. Odair Moreno Moniz was a Cape Verdean immigrant who, according to CNN Portugal, had a criminal record of drug trafficking and armed robbery, for which he had already served a prison sentence. He was shot in the early hours of morning, by the Portuguese police, after a night out partying. The police officer who shot Moniz had his gun license revoked. I see it as excessive personal defense. You can read about Moniz's killing and the outcoming riots here: https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Killing_of_Odair_Moniz. Anyways, celebrating a death of someone who died in an unjustifiable way doesn't sit quite right with me, even if Moniz was once a criminal.
At the end of the day, for me, this song gives me hope amidst the possible ending of our times. People being killed with excessive use of force unjustifiably, may it be in Ukraine, Gaza or in the street where Moniz was killed, will never be okay. Nor will be not caring about homophobia, racism and xenophobia. May we all come to understand others are different and how we must appreciate them and embrace them for who they are.
Slightly unrelated, but please sign this petition asking for a ceasefire in Gaza (AGAIN.): https://www.amnesty.org/en/petition/demand-a-ceasefire-by-all-parties-to-end-civilian-suffering/ and don't forget to click to help people for free on arab.org!! 💙
And that was why that song is so important nowadays, not just for Portugal, but for every country. It serves as a reminder that we should have empathy, and it's a pity the song exists, because if society was tuned to a pitch where empathy was the norm, this song probably wouldn't need to exist. Hope is still here though.
I love you all, and thank you for reading.
Best wishes,
BluePuffin
* He often tells others to kill themselves in moments of rage, casually, like it's just a normal thing to say. It desensitises pain and it reminds me of how we let cruelty be normalized. He is not the only one who does so, and take in mind it's something normal to say, even though it shouldn't be.
Hello, I'm BluePuffin!!
Hello, I'm BluePuffin!!
Hello, I'm BluePuffin!! This entry is me returning. No promises this time. I already have an entry prepared for next friday, and since i couldn't post this friday, i'll post today. Thank you!!
