Hi y'all! Today, I don't have poetry for yall. I have a flipnote animation of Washing Machine Heart by Mitski! I made it on a software called Flipnote Studio, on the Nintendo DSi. Eek! I'll probably post it to Sudomemo later. I'm currently in Monsaraz, a rural area in Portugal, in vacation. There's no WI-FI, so i can't get Sudomemo (revival of Flipnote Hatena, the animation video version of Twitter for Nintendo DSi) to work yet. I plan to interview the creator of the revival.
First of all, I want to recommend the song "Psycho" by Red Velvet. Fun fact: did you know they had a concert in North Korea before, even though they are a South Korean K-Pop girlies group? That must have been scary. I hope they're okay. I'm also gonna share a poem.
and i want you to know that you are loved. please know.
hello! today im gonna share some insight into today, i guess. today is wednesday, august 13, 2025. family members are inhabiting the room i'm in, far past the time i would have liked to have them here. to be honest, since it's 10:05pm, i just hope they went to their own houses and put theirselves to sleep. thankfully, the laptop's back is concealing my dad from seeing what I’m writing. i'm mad right now, but i don’t want to hurt people, so i don't fake being happy and smile and laugh, but i don’t yell nor shout at them either. im tired, i guess, and maybe that's what's making every single noise i hear so irritable.
i dont like how people always expect us to do stuff. at the astounding discovery that i wouldn't go on a walk tonight, my aunt (and cousin) called me a weakling. well, i dont care, but ok :3. out of spite, i'm now playing the song below. im better now somehow. also maybe because my dad is out of here and i was already tired of hearing formula 1 or sport stuff. anyways, i also expect people to do stuff, which is a bit hypocritical.
the song "all american bitch - olivia rodrigo" is how im feeling right now (ó﹏ò｡)
im also mad because my watch told me yesterday that my sleep quality was bad and that i shall not stay up late. but im being enabled to do that by me and my family ( • ᴖ • ｡). maybe that's why i am so mad right now. i just want to be left alone.
''i don't get angry when i'm pissed, im the eternal optimist, i scream inside to deal with it, like AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA. like AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA.................... all the time, im grateful all the time ₍^. .^₎Ⳋ ''
i kind of learned how to barely externalize anger towards others, and how to so minimazing how much they'd be hurt, even though im also, though i dont really get why or how, hurt. now, only my grandma is here and my non-grandpa. im still pissed off, but relieved. i just hope they are gone sooner by tomorrow. there's a thing called "social battery", and i like to be alone. so, now, a poem secretly directed to those who are inhabiting my place past my preferred time, will be shown to you.
I haven’t written here for a while. I won’t close this blog until Google decides blogs shall be gone, so be chill about the older entries disappearing. I’m also saving them on the Web Archive.
Lately, ever since July began, it has been summer vacation. I’ve traveled to Madrid, went to an activist event hosted by Amnesty International, and have been listening to Chappel Roan and Olivia Rodrigo as of now. I like their songs, and Chappel Roan is outspoken on global issues, while Olivia Rodrigo once posted a story raising money for children suffering in Gaza, so my conscience is clean while listening to them. I had tried a free trial of Apple Music, because I am boycotting Spotify, but now I’m listening to songs on my MP3 player.
I have also been talking with many Japanese people to practice it. I made a Japanese friend, and I got a Portuguese friend too, who is similar to me in many ways, but he likes Pokémon more than I care for its existence.
Today’s song I’ll recommend is Casual by Chappel Roan I like to relive memories of love experiences that never happened. I really admire Chappel Roan, so go support a girlie.
