Um, im back?

 Hello, I'm BluePuffin! 

 I’ve been throwing my blog under the doormat for quite a while now. U know, school… But i gotta share stuff with u peeps! My goal is that, for at least 8 weeks straight, to share with you guys one or 2 songs, a poem (small or not), ask you guys to sign some petition or take action, 

and anything else i want to tell ya! Well, I hope I’m in time. Here is the song recommendation:

Beaches by beabadoobee is a song I found out about fairly recently. I'm writing this on Sunday February 23rd 2025, I found about the song like... yesterday. There has been some drama related to beabadoobee and a meme video made about her and the background music on a video about it was this. For me, its meaning, what it simbolizes to me, is not only being in the right place where you feel you belong ("days blend to one when you're on the right beaches") but also about gathering the courage to do something, and doing it. I also feel like it's about the fear in doing something, but somehow also her asking us to not be afraid to do something: "don't wait for the tide just to dip both your feet in". 

confused, silent waters

it was like a riptide 

the silent water tides

my pen stuck on paper

but i remember, i do remember 

somewhere in time

dumb people existed

and like me they lied

but i silently resisted

days fade to night

it doesn’t feel right

cause if you won’t, well i might

shut the phone, fake alright

every page, every word

that i wrote along the road

shows a part of me alive

and another hidden, to survive 

should i swim out now

out there in the riptides

or stay home all day

just because im gay

  It was written February 25. It was based on 2 struggles: being gay and having to choose constantly if I should express it or hide it and be “safe”, and looking at the past, regretting something i did which barely affected someone except me, and wanting to talk about it with the person but at the same time expecting that the person would want to take the initiative for that. Spoiler: they won't. However, I don't think I'll even bother. If it doesn't affect them, and it affected me (#regret fr fr), why would i apologize? Anyways, that issue is directly connected with me being gay, as, if i wasnt gay, i could just talk it out, maybe. (stared at a dude i was obsessed with thinking it was a good idea 2 years ago lol). I could also still talk it out but then it would be awkward, of course, and what if? What if it became worse? Probably not, but still... ANYWAYS... 

(Update: I don’t really give a fuck about the second struggle anymore lol. Also, the “stay home all day” part derives from that if even hiding the fact I’m gay i have no friend to hang out with or “friend” with at the end of the day, it might be worth it to actually “swim out”, since, even if i still don’t get a friend to friend with at the end of the day, at the least I’d make myself more like myself)

let's help people, for free, every day, with a click! (literally)

Check out this site: https://arab.org/click-to-help/! I've already mentioned it before, but you can help your causes every day with this just by clicking to help. It's a small action, but 1*365 is bigger than 0*365 (doing at least something small every day is bigger than doing nothing). I'm counting on you guys to do this every day, we can do this! <3 Imagine if all of us did this every day? To be honest, I only started using it daily since 26th February, but yeah. I wouldn't like to be in the situations refugees, women in some countries and poor people face, so as i, part of a minoritary group (lgbt community i guess), with the risk of being even more oppressed, specially now when Trump is USA's president and the far right is rising, my duty is to at least try to help people who are being oppressed. Ignoring others who need help is easy and convenient, but I wouldn’t like to be left hanging when i need help. 

Conclusion

 Thank you for reading!! What a trip this entry was, right? I’d also like to announce I now have a blog in Japanese for simply daily life. If you understand Japanese or wanna translate, feel free to check ameblo.jp/pomigeru! But I don’t know if I’ll keep it up though… Well, I hope the entry you just read gave you food for thought. I love you all, see ya next Friday! I promise to write next time <3 Also, happy new year!!

 Love, 

 BluePuffin